Author Archives: Anna Redshaw

I don’t know that there are many things that make me feel better. I mean, does rest make me feel better? Or does it just stop me feeling worse? That’s a big one to unpick. Salt sometimes helps. Sugar, at others time. Painkillers stop pain becoming too debilitating. But do I see improvement thanks toContinue reading “Status quo”

I suppose I have chosen ,contentment over cure’. Because one is far more achievable than the other, and there is peace to be found there. I am not chasing a cure. I am not chasing recovery. I’m not even sure that you could say I’m chasing progress. I hope for progress. But am I activelyContinue reading “Contentment over Cure”

This post was written last year after a follower asked for some advice. They needed some help explaining to those around them that receiving care from certain people was easier, and more comfortable, than receiving care from others. There’s a story highlight on my Instagram page on this topic for anyone who missed it. OnContinue reading “‘Safe People’”

I don’t use the phrases “Good Day” and “Bad Day” anymore. Outsiders have no understanding of what that means. They apply their own definition to those things and their own definitions do not include ever-present, debilitating symptoms. Instead I’ve learnt to use “Easier Day” or “Harder Day”, with “My Normal” as the in between. ItContinue reading “An Easier Day”

CW: Mention of dependency on parents/family which I know is hard for some of my friends here. I get emotional about this cheap, skinny, old tree every year. It used to be in my bedroom when I was living with my parents and spent so much time ill in bed. Now it’s up in myContinue reading “Oh Christmas tree…”

It’s a restricted life but it’s my life nonetheless. And I don’t want to hate it. I don’t want to wish it away. It is so far from how I imagined my life would be. And yet the lessons I’ve had to learn are things I’d likely have been oblivious to, had I not gotContinue reading “I don’t and won’t”