There is to be a wedding and I am to be the bride! In December 2016 Mr Tree Surgeon asked me to marry him. We get married a week on Saturday surrounded by our family and a handful of close friends. I suppose you could say that my little 'Are we the real Undateables?' venture … Continue reading News Flash!
This week I had a follow up appointment with my endocrinologist. I was referred recently by my Wonder GP after I went to seek answers and advice about what can only be described as a ridiculously OTT reaction to anything that makes me jump. Just having Me Tree Surgeon walk into the kitchen when I … Continue reading Progress
A busy day of watching the world go by. People wonder what I do all day. The truth is I've learnt to be very good at just sitting. No TV, no music, no reading, no iPad. Just being. I still don't nap & I somehow never feel bored. I guess I'm too busy trying to … Continue reading Being
Sometimes there is absolutely no rhyme or reason for why the symptoms are worse & that can be the hardest part of this journey; accepting what simply cannot be explained or understood. The poison-in-my-veins feeling is the one that floors me more than the fatigue or the dizziness or the nausea or the sensory overload … Continue reading 7 years
I have lost the ability to make decisions. I find them quite distressing. Simple choices have come to feel as if they are the most important decisions in the world. I don't know why. Perhaps it is a lack of confidence; that I have lost confidence in my physical and cognitive abilities, so how can … Continue reading Decisions, decisions
Every now and then I have a complete crisis of confidence. Not regularly, and not for very long, but every now and then. I question why on earth someone like him would choose someone like me. I wonder if my friends have only stuck around through pity. I struggle to see myself as more than … Continue reading Self worth
It can be hard not to feel pathetic sometimes. If I have big plans in the evening, and by big plans I mean leaving the house, I tend to spend all day just sitting and waiting. It would be lovely to be able to potter around beforehand, but my energy is so precious that I … Continue reading Pathetic