Status quo

I don’t know that there are many things that make me feel better.

I mean, does rest make me feel better? Or does it just stop me feeling worse? That’s a big one to unpick.

Salt sometimes helps. Sugar, at others time. Painkillers stop pain becoming too debilitating.

But do I see improvement thanks to those things, or do they just help maintain the status quo? Which is being unwell without respite.

There is, however, a seemingly never-ending list of things that can make me worse.

• Exertion. Of any kind. Thinking. Speaking. Reading. Watching moving pictures. Using the stairs. Making a coffee. Bathing.

• Noise. Certain volumes. Certain pitches. The duration of the noise. The frequency of it. The reverberation of the bass through my body.

• Company. The physical presence of a human being (or guinea pig) never mind the actual conversation that might come with it.

• Light. Blue light. Cold white light. Bright light.

• Digesting certain foods. Red peppers are the most recent one to add to The List Of Foods That Aren’t Anna Friendly.

• Alcohol. Just NOPE. Although I can now tolerate wine in gravy again. How wild of me.

I remain ill, despite limiting and avoiding those things that exacerbate my ill health. And mostly isolated. With no soundtrack to help me through the days. No immersing myself in a book to escape reality.

It doesn’t sound so good when you write it out like that. But at least I have the knowledge to avoid the things that exacerbate my health as best I can.

Isn’t it all much easier said than done though, with life carrying on around you in it’s bright, noisy, over-stimulating way?

IMAGE: Anna in bed under a white duvet cover. She’s smiling at the camera. Delores, a guinea pig, is lying next to Anna.

Published by Anna Redshaw

Blogging about life in the slow lane with an invisible, chronic illness. I wasn't always a sick chick so this is somewhat of a life changing experience!

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