Category Archives: invisible illness

Something I have learnt about myself this year, and something that’s been pointed out to me again and again, is that I tend to put other people’s feelings above my own physical health. “It would make him so happy if I went.” “They would feel so disappointed if I cancelled.” “She might feel I don’tContinue reading ““But what’s best for you Anna?””

Sometimes I feel suffocated by my mobile phone. For ‘safety reasons’ I should really have my phone on me at all times. My health can change in a instant. I need to be able to call or message for help, as I have had to do so many times oer the years now. I don’tContinue reading “Suffocated”

Most of this year had been dominated by counselling. First it was every Tuesday. Then every other Tuesday. And now I hope it will be just one Tuesday every month. When your health places so many restrictions on your life, like my health does, something like an emotional weekly session completely dominates the remainder ofContinue reading “Reviving ‘My’ Wednesdays”

I’d say I had my first real taste of Anxiety in the first month of being ill. I had managed to painstakingly slowly cross the road in our little village in an attempt to get some fresh air and stretch my legs a little bit. But then I had this overwhelming feeling that I couldn’tContinue reading “M.E. myself and Anxiety?”

Acceptance it seems, is not a solid, permanent, all-inclusive state. In fact it comes and goes, and it comes in varying degrees. I accept that I am ill. I accept that my life must be moulded accordingly. But there are parts that I have not yet mastered, despite convincing myself that I had reached thisContinue reading “Degrees of Acceptance”

I went into ‘work’ last week. I walked through the grounds, past the nursery I used to drop the children at when I was a part-time nanny, and into the holiday camp that has been a constant in my life since the age of four. For the first few years after 2010 it was farContinue reading “Useful”

Related blog posts https://the-slow-lane.com/2017/03/15/worthy-of-help/ https://the-slow-lane.com/2018/07/31/one-year-on-pa-days/ Hello I’m Anna and I rely on help from Adult Social Care. When I left the care of my parents and moved in with Mr Tree Surgeon, six years into my M.E. journey, a dream came true. I had flown the nest, but that momentous story is for another day.Continue reading “Two years of ‘PA Days’”