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The visual disturbances are worse. I’m struggling to not let it get to me sometimes. Not being able to see properly is very frustrating. It’s not my prescription and there is nothing untoward going on that the opticians and doctors can find. Instead it’s the good old M.E. reeking havoc I with yet another bodily function.
It’s hard to describe really, as I’ve mentioned before. It’s a bit like looking through a dirty or scratched camera lens (and my glasses are clean thank you very much so it’s not that.) It’s not quite the same as the aura I get during migraines either although sometimes I take my migraine medication just incase. It’s not as simply as just being out of focus but it is as if my brain can’t work fast enough to process what my eyes are seeing. There are also squiggly lines (a bit like you used to see on old TV screens when it had lost signal?) that like to dance around at the top and bottom of my peripheral vision. It doesn’t seem to be linked to the light sensitivity I get either. I wish I could show you to explain!
In other news, my hair has grown! And without me really realising, which is the best sign because it means I haven’t been consciously struggling to wash it myself. That’s the only reason I got the chop (back in 2012) in the first place; so I could manage it myself, i.e. I couldn’t, so it all had to come off.
I’ve even gone so far as to buy myself a hairbrush. Sorry faithful, old, multipack comb. You served me well. And hair actually looks better when you brush it. Who knew?! In the year or two before I got ill I had a bob and I’m well on my way to getting back there. Although I’m sure a style that wouldn’t need styling would surely be better with my current energy supply.
My hair seems to grow up and out before it grows down. I have very thick hair that has quite a strong wave to it (what is this a beauty blog!) and so it can look very Afro-esque for a while, much to the amusement of my family. It’s almost a year since I ‘did a Britney’ and shaved me head out of desperation and perhaps boredom or perhaps it was just a moment of madness…Talk about manageable hair! It was great, but it’s really not a look I can pull off!
So I can’t really see but soon I’ll have luscious, wavy locks again. Let it never be said that I couldn’t at least try to see the positives.