Did you miss me?

So I’ve had a short break from blogging. Sadly it hasn’t left me feeling any better like I’d hoped it would. It’s a shame but hey ho!

So I’m back. Aren’t you lucky?!

I read something recently about how to increase the amount of views your blog gets. The tips included writing about current and common subjects. That’s not what my blog is about. As a result I have a specific audience. My blog doesn’t get the coverage that the fashion or beauty or the sports blogs get. Why would it?! If I didn’t have M.E I can almost say for sure that I wouldn’t bother to read a blog about life with illness. Funny how things change…

Most of you won’t read on when you realise what this post is about. My regular readers and followers will. I understand, that’s just the way of the world. This world is such a funny place. When did we all become so materialistic? And obsessed with celebrities and beauty products and fashion? I’ve never been one of those girls. I don’t mean to offend anyone when I say I almost pity the people who think those things are the be all and end all…

There have been a few bed days recently. Alas with a couple of new DVDs it hasn’t been too horrendous. I haven’t been stuck in bed (aka prison) the whole time though. There’ve been a couple of days where the sun was shining and my body was strong enough to get out into the garden to make the most of it.

I feel lucky. With my new found appreciation of…well, everything I notice when trees start to bloom and how the nights get lighter as the weeks move on. I have friends whose health is much worse than my own so being able to use the garden is a huge blessing and I don’t want to take it for granted. I just love to sit and breathe in proper fresh air. That’s maybe a bit sad I know but these are the things we all take for granted; the smell of rain or freshly cut grass, the neighbour’s cat thinking it’s a the bees knees strutting around with a mouse in it’s mouth, my elderly neighbour helping his elderly wife to their car… My eyes have been opened to things that go unnoticed by the majority. I’m always felt that family should come first but I appreciate that more than ever now. I am thankful for my friends, old and new. I’m thankful for the time I had as a ‘normal’ and healthy person. I’ve reminded myself that without these lows I would be unable to appreciate the highs.

My health is incredibly bad but I am so lucky in so many ways and I’m so thankful that I’m aware of that.