White Blank Page

Since I spoke to you last I have had three ‘busy’ days; Christmas Day, Boxing Day and my cousin’s birthday. I have also, true to form, consumed more chocolate than I’d thought humanly possible. Most of my family work in education so everyone has been around over the last couple of weeks because of the school holidays. It has been a lovely Christmas.

It was quite hard though, to be hit once again with the realisation that my life is so limited now. With siblings and friends off out over the festive period I was reminded how much ‘normal’ people actually get up to. I couldn’t join in with many of the games played over the Christmas holidays and it was hard to find myself alone despite a seemingly full house, while my siblings were out catching up with friends.

So, a new year. A fresh start. Fresh, blank pages in the book of life. Day 1 of 2013 is looking like a pj day. My body seems to think I spent last night painting the town red. I, of course, did not. But I am out of bed, and even if I only manage to be downstairs for a few hours, I’m seeing it as a good start. I’ve been in more pain over the last few weeks than I have for a long time, so I’m ‘being kind to myself’ and not making my body do anything it doesn’t want to do.

I am now entering the third year of ‘The M.E Years’. My New Year’s resolution is, again, to make no New Year’s resolutions 😉 Instead, I will continue to try to live my life daily, rather than monthly or yearly…if that makes sense.

But I can look back and count my blessings. I am overwhelmed by people’s kindness and the unconditional love of most of my friends. My life is so different now and so, so am I, but they still accept me and these changes. And my family too…I can’t quite put it into words…
And my new friends. To have people in the same position who have accepted me into the fold and become true friends has been vital.

I am lucky that I have a new found appreciation of things. I am content, and find happiness is the smallest, and most basic, of things. I know, I know…I’m one of those annoying people who look at everything through rose tinted glasses…but it’s just how I am.

I’m hoping to be up to writing a post about the ‘sciencey bits’ behind my broken brain very soon, but my brain needs to be working a little better for that post to happen…you may be waiting some time haha!

So, Happy New Year all. Here’s hoping for happy and healthier times ahead.