Tightrope

One of the trickiest things is not overdoing it on the days when you feel a little bit more alive. I must avoid the ‘boom and bust’ cycle. It is so hard not to go ‘all out’ on the days when you seem to have a little bit more energy and do the things you have been unable to do for so long.

Today I desperately wanted to try to bake a cake. I have been craving cake all week and now that there is gluten-free flour in the house it seemed the ideal time to do it. But I knew I was ‘on the edge’. I have to be careful not to overdo it, even though I felt like I could do it at the time. This week has already been ‘busy’ for me with spending more time on my laptop than usual because I started this blog. I had to reign myself in. When you have M.E. you have to do this a lot. You have to be regimented. I have to do this when I see my friends. I would love to stay out and see them for hours on end and I desperately want to, but I can’t. I mustn’t. I mustn’t get ahead of myself. Doing too much is not good. Running on adrenaline is not good either. The aftermath is not pleasant! Adrenaline knocks me for six! I find it hard to know when I am running on adrenaline but today I think I spotted it and so stopped before I got ahead of myself. I have had to learn to be patient. My cake will have to wait. Perhaps somebody would like to make it for me? 😉 The flour is ready on the side in the kitchen waiting for you…