Author Archives: Anna Redshaw

As sufferers of a chronic illness we are said to go through the grief cycle continually. We are mourning the loss of the life we had and the dreams we’d dreamt and the plans we’d made for the future. We are mourning the normal life that should be taken as a given. We are mourningContinue reading “Mourning”

Had a very poorly end to the week so this is my first post for a few days. I foolishly downloaded a game onto my iPad and must have somehow spent too much time playing it. Who knew pretend farming was so exhausting?! That combined with a new air fresher in the house that myContinue reading “Feeling Christmassy!”

I wrote half of my Christmas cards last night (how very wild of me!) and so today my brain is in a strop. When my brain and body can’t manage such a ‘straightforward’ task, well, it can leave you feeling a bit hard done by. For me, it is a big task – to beContinue reading “Sad face”

I am rarely jealous. Like most girls I was never a fan of other girls moving in on my boyfriends, etc, but I don’t think I’m an overly jealous person. Less so since being ill anyway. But when your life is on hold, you can’t help but notice how other people’s lives are continuing. ItContinue reading “The green eyed monster”

I was asked what wellness is to me when I visited the CFS/ME clinic recently. On a scale of M.E to full health and normality where am I hoping to reach? Unimaginable awfulness____me________________Full health I answered that being able to work for a few hours a week, cook my own meals, leave home, live independently,Continue reading “Wellness”

There is no cure for our condition. There isn’t even any decisive treatment or medication. Recovery stats and rates are far from encouraging. We have to accept that it is likely we will suffer from M.E for the rest of our lives. This could be it for most of us. We could be this poorlyContinue reading “Better than yesterday, worse than tomorrow”

Ive already made a similar post to this one so apologies for any repetition. These are just some thoughts that I’m trying to make sense of. Visiting the CFS/ME clinic always leaves me confused and overwhelmed. There is so much to get my head around and a lot of it is contradictory. Some of youContinue reading “Practise makes perfect?”