A busy day of watching the world go by.
People wonder what I do all day. The truth is I’ve learnt to be very good at just sitting. No TV, no music, no reading, no iPad. Just being. I still don’t nap & I somehow never feel bored. I guess I’m too busy trying to stay calm while my body screams and shouts at me constantly.
I feel lucky that I’ve managed to learn to just be.
If you asked me to list my symptoms right now I’d struggle to; they’ve become so normal and so much a part of me that on days like today (neither a good nor a bad day) I can zone out on them completely.
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Blogging about life in the slow lane with an invisible, chronic illness. I wasn't always a sick chick so this is somewhat of a life changing experience!
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M.E. myself and I 
Dear Anna,
I understand your post totally. I spend most afternoons just sitting. Mostly in silence with no lights on and with the majority of the blinds closed.
Having said that, if someone rings or knocks at the door I always answer, and am pleased to make contact.
I just seem to need to rest. Reconfigure my thoughts, and prepare for the next interaction.
This afternoon I was meant to go and see my cat in his new home. He has been rehomed as I was, and still am, not up to looking after him.
But I cancelled. Yesterday had been too full, and I knew I just had to rest. Sitting on the sofa, my feet on a footstool, in the quiet of my home.
Frankly, I’m really lucky to have a quiet home. But I would have liked to have seen my cat. His new owners look after him well and, very kindly, keep in touch and send me photos of him by email.
Take care Anna. With all good wishes. I hope you are managing ok.
Anne Mayo, Oakham
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Anne, so very sorry that you had to give up your cat – I really hope you get to visit him soon. I hope you don’t miss him too much – cats give such comfort. Try to relax your muscles – this allows more oxygen which brings more energy. Hope you improve soon.
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Hello Anne. I hope today is kind to you and that the change of seasons isn’t too hard on you. My body doesn’t seem to like it!
I’m so sorry to read about your cat Anne. I hope you will get to see him soon.
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I love that ability to just be. I think many people struggle with it. I do sometimes, but I am able to just sit. I think I’m a daydreamer, that’s why I quite enjoy the quiet, alone moments when I can just wander… I’m glad you had an okay day. Hugs, Char
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I think you’re right in that many people struggle with it. I feel lucky I’m able to just be the majority of the time. Hope today is kind to you Char
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